Why do I let it bother me like this?  / Danielle (Sister)
well hello there sweetie... I really miss you! I am having such a hard time!!! Help me I know I Wouldnt be goin through this myself if you were here with me :'( <br>
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Just a lil update on Colby, he is doing great :) he is growing the way he is suppose to be! Right on target! :) He will be here in like a month and 1/2 or sooner :) I can't wait for him to be home :) I am just sooo bothered because I know you would call me after school everytime I had a dr's appointment and Sandra never does. She doesnt want anythin to do with this baby just like she never wanted anything to do with Matthew :( Why do ppl have to be this way Viki for real! <br>
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As far as our "real" father, I havent talked to him since before Matthew's birthday! How sad is that? He didnt even call on Christmas to wish his own f*kin grandson Merry Christmas. Answer me this, why do I let this bother me so much? What did I ever do to deserve the way I am being treated? Am I that much of a bad person? Well I can't handle this anymore. I gotta stop writing. I will write again on friday when I know when they are gunna give me my c-section! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU I WISH YOU WERE HERE! Close

I LOVE U  / Helen (Step-sister)
hey vicki i really cant believe it has been 3 years already. every day i think of u and miss u even more each time sorry i havent been here to write to u its been a mess with the boys and not having computer access. so i just wanted to let u know that u r still in my thoughts  and i miss and love u very much. Close

o god please help me i need to talk to you  / Danielle (Sister)
Viki I really need you here I am totally upset, I have been crying for like 24 hours and I can't stop! Things wouldn't be like this if you were here! I wouldn't have a thing in the world to worry about. Vic you don't understand how shady every one and I mean everyone has become! I know you are watching but why the f**k is everyone like this? its rediculous we are suppose to be family but since you left us we havent been... no one is here for me to talk to, I mean some people but you gotta watch what you say because the whole world will know what you said! But if you were here to talk to me I know everything I told you was a total secert! PLEASE HELP ME VIKI... I am going crazy and I cant help it!!!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE EFFIN CRAZII



O yeah today was Matthew's first day in Pre-school I know you woulda been there to see my baby boy go off on the bus for his first day!






GRRRR....HHHHEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPPPP MMMMMMEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Close

3 years baby girl :'(  / Danielle Shane N. Matthew (Sister, Brother in law, and Nephew )

3 years today baby girl! I love you and miss you.... so does matthew and shane! watch over mommy she really needs you, you know why! help her vicky!

 

I wrote a nice long one before but it didnt save it! freaken a!

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One of the hardest things I've ever had to do....  / Annie (Aunt)

Hi honey,  this is such a hard thing for me to do...I have visited your site many times with the intentions of writing something and it always ends up the same way...I start to cry and then I feel so sad and end up closing out, I know your in Heaven watching me struggle with this so I just say alittle prayer and talk to you for a while and promise you that I'll try again soon...Vic, I miss you so much..I would give anything just to hear you laugh again..I think that is one of the things I miss the most..There are so many things I wish I had told you and even though I know you know.. GOD HOW I WISH I HAD TOLD YOU..I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AND I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH!! .It doesnt matter how much time goes by I still hurt like the very first time I tried to write to you.. It never gets any easier for me.  When my time comes for me to see you again the very first thing I'm going to do is give you the biggest hug and tell you how much I love you. I miss having you here with us and screwing around with me and complaining about everybody..lol....those were the good ole days...and I sure miss them..I love you honey and I promise to write to you again soon...missing you as always...goodnight sweet angel and all my love.....till next time  oxoxoxo

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HAVING A REALLY HARD TIME :-/  / Danielle (Sister)

Hey Vicki, I am so sorry that I have not sat down to write to you but I am having a very hard time this year and I am not sure why. I have made myself distant with the family because it is just not the same without you here! I can't take it anymore, I need you here with me, I have no one that I can vent to about my things on my chest and I have had to keep it in since you left me! I am so broke and Christmas is right around the corner and I can't buy anything because everything is so expensive any more, all my bills are overdue and I dont understand it because we are both working all the time! It's just not fair! I need someone Vicki please send someone to me so I can vent to someone! I can't talk to Sandra because I don't want her to tell anyone, I can't talk to mom because she just never has any time for me, you know how that is Vic. Everyone moved so far away, Dale is back in Idaho, Tiff moved to Lake Winola, none of your friends come around but Ashlee, she comes and has dinner with me, shane, and matthew. And it feels really good because it makes me think of you. Well hunnie I guess that is enough Blabbing to you... Just remember that we all love you so very much and we miss you like CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help me please!! 

P.s. Matthew's favorite teacher at daycare looks just like you! curly hair, red cheeks and all!!!

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wishing u were here  / Helen (step-sister)
Hey vicki i miss u very much i wish u were here today to see ma and dad get married i know u were watching over them as they said i do but thats not the same as u being here. We miss u so much and the words are so hard to say we love u so much so just rest in peace i am going for now Close

wishing u were here  / Aunt Chris
hello honey, just sitting here thinking of you as always. today is mother's day, and your momwent to work. holidays don't mean much to her anymore. just wanted you to know that your ALWAYS in my thoughts i think of you everyday. soon it will be your 19th birthday. too bad you won't be HERE to celibrate it with us. well honey i have to go, it' still hard to talk to you here. i always start crying, and i tell myself that i'm not going to do that anymore..... right. so vic, i love you and miss you... fimh Close

missing you  / Aunt Chris
hi honey, just sitting here thinking of you. sorry i missed valentines day, but i have been pretty sick lately. but i still love and i miss you, rip fimh        will be back later Close

happy new years  / Aunt Chris
happy new years honey, i know i'm a little late,but i couldn't get online. but i'm only an hour and 43 mins. late. still missing you like crazy. wishing everyday that i could tell you in person how much i love you, but i'm sure you know that already. mom is doing ok, we talk and cry about you alot, i think we always will. just can't seem to go on like everyone tells us too. we never will. something is missing in our lives and its you. well honey its late. i just want to let you know i love you and miss you. R.I.P.   Close

hi honey  / Aunt Chris
well Vick, one more thing to add to our problems, Sandra and Davids house burnt down today. they lost everything.... chelsea was so upset that she lost her teddy bear.I'm going to try and find her another one. But thank God everyone got out. Tiff was watching the kids while Sandra and David were at work. We miss you honey, and Christmas just wasn't the same without you. Mom is going thru so much, I wish this black cloud would leave us. I love you. well honey i have to go, i miss you and love you. R I P  Close

thanksgiving / Aunt Chris (aunt)
HI HONEY, WELL THANKSGIVING CAME AND WENT. WE ALL WENT TO GRANDMAS HOUSE, SHE'S NOT DOING TOO GOOD. I KNOW WHEN IT'S HER TURN TO COME HOME,YOU'LL BE THERE TO TAKE CARE OF HER. THE HOLIDAYS STILL DON'T MEAN THAT MUCH. THERE'S SOMEONE MISSING, YOU!! THERES SUCH A SADNESS, AND I GUESS THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. THESE HOLIDAYS ARE SO HARD ON EVERYONE, BUT MOSTLY YOUR MOM. SHE IS SOOOO UNHAPPY. SHE MISSES YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. OH VICKI THIS IS STILL SO HARD WRITTING TO YOU. HONEY I HAVE TO GO.... REMEMBER THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. I LOVE YOU. REST IN PEACE HONEY...... Close

missing u  / Helen (step-sister)
hey Vicki just wanted to say how much u r missed and loved well i had the baby 3 months ago as u know i havent been on bec it is hard being on and taking care of the kids mikey is the worst behaived kid of mine as u know so i dont know when i will be on again but u will always be in my mind and heart i love u and miss u i have to go now Close

to Victoria love always Tracey  / Tracey Sherman
hey there vik, 

 yea it's been awhile and im sorry. that does not mean i dont love you and think about you everyday. today is dawne maries birthday and im sure those girls are thinking of you right now. they miss you more then you can ever imagine! tomorrow is tonyas baby shower(howabout that) and we will all be there thinking of you, you will always be in our hearts and souls.  your big red doggers miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Close

LOVIN YOU  / Aunt Chris
HEY HONEY, WELL I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT MOM AND DANNIE WERE OVER LAST NIGHT AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT YOU AS ALWAYS,,, DANNIE WORKS AT CHARLIES AND SHE SAID NOW SHE KNOWS WHY YOU AND CHARLIE HAD A HARD TIME WORKING TOGETHER!!! WELL FINALLY WE ARE GOING TO COURT, AND SEE WHEN HE WILL BE START PAYING FOR TAKING YOU FROM US, SURE TOOK THEM LONG ENOUGH! BUT I GUESS THAT WON'T BRING YOU HOME TO US, THEY WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THAT, BUT THIS WEB SITE SURE HELPS ME(AND I'M SURE ALOT OF OTHERS) TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU. IT HURTS COMING ON HERE AND I ALWAYS END UP CRYING, BUT AT LEAST I CAN TALK TO YOU. VICKI YOU ARE SOOO MISSED AND LOVED. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOUR GONE FROM US. BUT YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS. WELL HONEY IT'S LATE AND I GUESS I SHOULD GET AROUND AND GO TO BED.WATCH OVER US HONEY, MOSTLY MOM....... GOOD NIGHT   I LOVE YOU
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to our angel  / Aunt Chris (aunt)
hello honey, sitting here thinking of you as always. wondering why still, i guess we'll never have all the answers. i miss you vicki, so much. things around here aren't the same and i know they never will be. our smiles and laughter aren't the same either. it's just not the same without you. people say its time to get on with our lives,but we can't. we still shed the tears when ever we talk about you. mom and i talk about you alot, i think i need her as much as she needs me, i know i'm just your aunt, but i feel like you were mine. a part  of me went with you that night. i hate to come here to talk to you because all i do is cry, but i want you to know i love you and miss you. there is such a void in my life. well honey, i have to go, please watch over mom. shes so unhappy without you. i wish there was a way that you could tell her your okay. i have to go!! i love you and miss you, rest in peace honey. all my love Close

Always in my heart.  / Ashlee Sherman
Well Vick, It's been a year. Me, Rich, Donny and Mattie all went out to get something to eat and of course Rich and Donny had to cause a scene, fight, bitch.. you know how it goes. We went to the accident sight and Rich had to make it look better, haha. It's never going to feel the same with out you hun. I love you with everything in my heart and I miss you more then words can say. I know you're still with us in spirit. I know it might sound a little crazy, but I've seen alot of butterflies this year, I just couldn't help but think it was you there with me. I love you hun, and I could never forget you. Close

1 year ago  / Aunt Chris (aunt)
hey vic, well today is 1 year that u left us. we all miss u soooo much. the pain is still like it just happened. mom and the rest of the family went to lake walenpaulpack, mom had to get away from here. i was talking to her yesterday,and shes not doing to good. god i wish i could take some of the pain from her. this just isn't right!!!  man i wish we could turn back time, things would be different! you wouldn't go anywhere on that day. then none of this would be happening. well i have to go. the tears won't stop. i love you and miss you.rest in peace fimh Close

I Love YOu  / Sandra Birchard (Sister)
Well Vic here I 'am writing to u on a stupied computer.. witch i think is rediculios.. but what are we going to do.. some say that ur in a better place. but no matter what they say.. itsucks and i miss u so bad.. logan starts head start tommorrow and ur not even here to see him go... but aunt danni will be and u can watch from heaven.. but i hate havin to do this everytime i wanna say something.. but i love u.. matthew is getting so big.. danni had a miscarraige and it bothers her real bad .. that i cant even imagine how the pain could be for her... but it wasn't the right time u no.. just how god works ..... man I love u and miss u so much..... well i better get going to bed i have work tommorrow and everytime i get on here i cry my eyes out thats why i dont get on here much... love u xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox Close

my heart goes out  / Cassandra Borrrelli (Friend of Family )
I wanted to take a moment to let vicki's family know, that my heart goes out to them.

If there is anything that I can do to help during this time, please let me know I would be more then happy to do so. Close